Well, we did it. We moved our two youngest to San Diego, California. The land of Endless Sunshine and Infinite Dreams. With a trailer crammed to the brim, four weighted down vehicles, 3 dogs, 2 boyfriends and one sad momma we headed west for our 1000 mile plus trip. It was something I dreaded doing. The closer we got to the California border, the bigger their smiles were getting, which in turn made me smile through my streaming salty tears. The first night in San Diego we went to Sunset Cliffs in Ocean Beach to see the sun set. It was a beautiful sight. We of course took many pictures. A few days later I looked at the pictures we had taken. I was surprised to see how happy I looked. In fact I believe the smile on my face is the most genuine smile I have ever had in any picture, ever. I was perplexed because inside my heart was breaking. Then I realized that I was genuinely happy because I knew how happy my daughters were. And isn't that all we ever want for our children? To be truely happy. I think that is the greatest gift a Mom could ever ask for. If I knew how fast my kids were going to grow up I would have done things differently. I would have held them on my lap more. I would have tucked them in bed and lingered longer just to be near them. I would have taken the time to play and be silly and not feel so rushed to get things done that could have waited. It is true when they say in childhood the days are long but the years are short. How I long for those long crazy days that I thought would never end.
I'm lucky to have found a person to spend my life with that loves and believes in me. He must be a special man because I am quirky, unorganized & think my cluttered thoughts aloud to him on a regular basis.