I Have a Friend

When I was growing up we moved alot.  I went to a total of 8 schools in 3 states.  It was really hard to establish friendships.  Not to mention my lack of confidence and security.  During the Elementary years it was fun being the new girl!  Everyone wanted to be the one to take me to the lunchroom or show me where the bathroom was.  I loved it!  But, around Junior High it wasn't much fun.  Girls were just plain mean!  They had all been together since Grade School and had already formed little "clicks" that I was not a part of and had a hard time trying to find one to fit into.  Each school I went to I did find at least one person to be friends with and I've thought of them often and imagined if I had stayed there that we would probably be inseparable, life long friends.  Happily, one day I found one of them on Facebook.  I did a Friend request and was so excited when she accepted.  My bubble was quicly burst when she sent me a message asking me who I was!  When I told her, she still had no recollection of me.  She hasn't Unfriended me so I guess that's a plus :)  This has all gotten me to thinking of the friends I have made as an adult.  I don't have a Lucy/Ethel thing going on yet (something I've always longed for!) but the friends I do have, I cherish very much.  They have all made an impact on me.  Inside, I still feel like that 12 year old girl that was laughed at or shunned and it makes me cautious.  So, my goal is to be a better friend to the ones I have and to be more open to making new ones.  There's nothing better than a nice long visit with someone that makes you feel happy.  Whether they know it or not.

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